Holidays

My mid-semester break officially starts today! Feel so happy^^

To-do list in this 1 week of holidays:

1. Go ice-skating

2. Go for 2 games of badminton.

3. Sleep at least 10 hours a day!

4. Swim for 4 days.

5. 20-page Chemistry report

6. A stupid 1000 words research essay on "The decline of frogs".

7. Biotechnology information design. (freaking waste of time)

8. Explore nice food in kl.

9. Go to the gym for at least 5 times.

10. Loose 1 kg of my weight.
11. Clean up my messy room.
12. Make myself a study timetable for revision purpose.

That's all, not too greedy I guess.

But I seriously doubt that I would complete item 5, 6,and 7!  I'm a classic procrastinator = P
Well, we shall see=)

At last, HOLIDAYS!!!

Hopeless emptiness. Plenty of people are onto the emptiness, but it takes real guts to see the hopelessness.

Emo-ing. The side effects of drinking espresso 2am in the morning?

Clear mind

Life had been so stressful lately. Endless assignments, mountains of reports, countless research essays, and some annoying tests in between here and there. Life can be even more stressful sometimes with the everyday routines we have to endure. Think carefully about it, I realized that there is no difference between this Thursday with last Thursday and the many many Thursday before. Hear my 3 alarm clocks. Kick one of them down my bed. Struggle to wake up. Brush my teeth. Take a bath. Class starts at 9am, ends at 2pm. Walk to the same restaurant nearby with friends, ordered the same food. Talking with the same friends, study at the same spot in the library, rushing for assignments, running to class, preparing for test on Friday. Come home. Get enough of rest and repeat the whole process again the next day. The only difference between today and one of the Thursdays last month is just the date. I'm just so sicked and tired of all these routines. Just can't wait for the semester to end as soon as possible (55 days away! ^^).

So, for a change, instead of staying back to study. I went swimming immediately after class at 2pm.

Sometimes it is good to get it all out and do some swimming. It was beautiful and I felt a peaceful calm feeling just come over me by swimming at a slow pace, gliding through the water.  I feel so relaxed that I almost fell asleep while swimming! I haven't felt that way in a really long time. The feeling is just indescribable.

By focusing our attention on our body and physical self, we actually allow ourselves a break from our mind.

This ‘break’ allows our mind to rest and to gain perspective. Sometimes the best way of solving a problem is to not think about it! By focusing on something (such as to stop ourselves form drowning) other than our minds, we allow clear thinking to arrive. I believed that the stressful situation becomes much more manageable once we have had a break.

After 20 laps, 90 minutes of swimming, I find my mind raises above all mental activities and experienced the simplest form of awareness. I'm alert of my goals and  I feel so damn motivated to achieve all of them XD

Instead of worrying, I find myself relishing the challenges that lies ahead as I gear up for my final exams, which will start in approximately 43 days.

Self-renewal

I HATE it when people doubted my abilities.

To my doubters,

Thanks for challenging my intelligence.

Thanks for doubting my knowledge.

Thanks for looking down on me.

Today, you people successfully reignited my winning mentality that I lost a year ago. 

I thank you sincerely for that. I really do.

I don't want to say much at this point. I'll walk the talk and not just talk the talk. All I can say to you people is that,

Yesterday, I dared to struggle.

Today, I dare to win.

Knock me down, people.

I'll flatten you as I bounce back.

We shall see our results by mid-December, and I'll let you know who is the smart ass.

What happens when you didn't sleep for 64 hours?

The answer is simple. Shit happens.

I started my embarrassing day at the uni's carpark.

As I didn't sleep for some time, I'm actually quite blur about my surroundings. Once I got down my car, I realized that my hair is damn messy. So, I look at my reflection at the car next to me and start styling my hair for almost 5 minutes.

Suddenly, I noticed a pair of eyes staring at me THROUGH that window. A girl was inside the car and she gave me a 'what-the-hell-on-earth-this-guy-is-doing-here'  look. I was so embarrassed, and ran into the uni in no time. Cursing myself along the way.

Later the day, I put on a brave face and walked into the exam hall, sat for my 1-hour mid semester test. I was so freaking tired that my mind could barely think. All 10 subjective questions, I answered all of them using my common sense, and used nothing from my 2 inches thick lecture notes. I don't think this is a good sign when you are sitting for a science subject paper. I came out with an emotionless look, feeling weird and empty.

Lesson learned: Never take things too lightly and do last minute studying.

Finally, I reached home by 5pm. Slept like a pig before being woke up by my father's phone call by 7pm. I totally forgotten that he came to KL. I rushed to the hotel and waited for him around half an hour.While waiting for him, I walked around the shopping center. When he saw me, he asked me to check myself in the toilet before talking to him. To my horror, I noticed that I wore my T-shirt inside-out!!! and I've been walking in the shopping mall for 30 minutes!!!I feel like committing suicide...OMG...

What happens when you didn't sleep for 64 hours?

Shit happens.

Swear, again

“Stress: The confusion created when one's mind overrides the body's basic desire to choke the living daylights out of some jerk who desperately deserves it”

Yup, I'm the Jerk who put myself in this shitty situation.

I swear to myself, AGAIN,

if I manage to survive until monday 2pm,

I vowed to take things more seriously.

Shit...Damn stressed up.

Eyes On Me

Eyes On Me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer 

I instantly fell in love with this song when I first heard it. The lyrics is so sweet.

Random post of the day: Seriously, I never understand how my friend handle my lab manual...It ended up...HALF.

I think I SHOULD feel angry, but somehow I just find it amazing and hilarious that how on earth he can tear my lab manual into half with one hand and talking on a cell phone using another hand. When he gave it back to me, he just said: Oops...

Instead of erupting, I just can't stop laughing like a mad man in the library.
PS: I usually don't take the effort to bind my stuff to make it look neat and tidy. This is the first time I did it and it ended up being teared into half.(-_-'')

Of Mouse, Bombshell and Gluttony

I would describe the day as very eventful day.

First, to celebrate one of my friend's birthday, my gang and I went to Pyramid to shop for his present.

Our initial budget was RM50 and thought of buying him something sentimental.

But, we end up buying this.

                                 A Razor Copperhead Gaming Mouse.

What the? Our budget shot up from RM 50 to a whooping RM 279. Almost 5 times of the original budget!!! 

It seems stupid, but in the name of FRIENDSHIP, what the heck....

This also indicates that I'll be having bread + peanut butter for my next few dinner T_T

According to my friend, this mouse is the world's MOST ADVANCE gaming mouse developed for gamers and it is one kick-ass partner in game and bla bla bla.....

To me, any mouse that can function would be practical enough.

                                       The lousy-but-usable mouse I'm using.

Again, as long as the birthday boy is happy, who cares? (Perhaps, my wallet? lol)

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Earlier this morning. I was given a SUPER DUPER BOMBSHELL by a lovely female ex-course mate.

I was given  A LETTER OF CONFESSION along with A VERY SWEET AUTOBIOGRAPHY!

OMG!!!!!!! I was speechless. I was actually very touched but at the same time, I felt sorry for her.

Sigh...I don't know how to explain to her. She just picked the wrong time. There are two times in every man's life when he is thoroughly happy; just after he has met his first love and just after he has parted from his last one. Unfortunately for her, I am in the second situation.

To be honest, she's hot, funny, kind and a very sweet girl, but me and her just lack some chemistry in between us. Moreover, at the moment, I'm not interested in girls.Oops...XD

I felt sorry for her, she came to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an  imperfect person @ me perfectly.

Went to lunch with her and we had a lengthy talk. We agreed to be the good friends as we used to be and I promised her whenever she needs me in anyway I will always be there for her. I knew it would be hurtful for her but it is better to let her know now rather than fooling her around.  Just hoped that she is alright. Sigh...

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Last event of the day, I signed up a gym membership in a gym near my house. I seriously need some exercise. Getting fat with all the good food around...

As the picture above shows, we Malaysian LIVE TO EAT....OMG....what will I become in few years time?

A pig?? Oink~oink~ XD