Day 2.....Insane

I woke up 6am this morning, had a light breakfast and went to uni around 7am.

From then on, it's all NIGHTMARE.

3 hours of Thermodynamics made me realize it's a pain in the a**. It's not as easy as I thought.

3 hours of Environmental Science, I'm on the brink of mental break down. Too much facts for my pea-size brain. XD.

Then I went for lunch. Wasted 8 bucks on some sucky food.

Continued my studies at 2pm.

3 hours on human nervous system.

3 hours of Genetics.

3 hours of reaction kinetics.

Library closed at 11pm.

When I left the library, I felt  extremely dizzy and I see stars! @_@

This is just the second day I did this. More crazy days ahead....

God save my soul T_T

* I just realized I haven't eat my dinner, but at 11pm, not much choice. So, I end up having a Mac-value meal. How fattening can that be?? Sigh...

Feeling Empty

Perhaps Uni is restarting in 5 hours time...

Perhaps I'm leaving my home in 2 hours time...

Perhaps I miss my parents...

Perhaps I'm sick of going back to the rushing life in KL...

I really don't know why I'm feeling so down and empty at the moment...

I guess I just don't want to face the reality that once I'm back in KL, I won't be coming home for another 40 days, and exam is starting in 25 days time. Once I go back, time flies and before I knew it, exam will be just around the corner. This means I need to start studying like a zombie and rush assignment at the same time. Once I go back, I can't be pampered by my parents, I can't joke and chit chat with my family, listen to my pa's stories. Once I go back, I need to do everything myself. EVERYTHING. It's not that I'm not used to it, but I just can't explain why I don't want to go back.

I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone.

I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become.

I don't want to have the same routine everyday, but I'm afraid to change.

And I'm just tired.

I'm just so tired of being afraid.

No matter how bad I wanted to stay at home, I don't have a choice.

That's life....sigh....

Life is simple, but it's just not easy.