A holiday which does not feels like one.

When the paper was collected on 11.44am approximately 4 days ago, my heart stopped. I totally screwed up the paper. There's nothing I could do now. Just keep my fingers crossed that it won't affect my study plans for next year.  The lecturers from australia are crazy. Setting up questions that are totally different than the past 3 years papers. Just wanna curse them sincerely from the bottom of my heart. When I scanned through the past year paper, I thought, I should be quite well prepared. But then....sigh...Anyway, what is passed is history. No point thinking bout it.  Went to have lunch at Carl's Junior to celebrate the end of exams but everyone's expression just seems quite weird. Thanks to that shitty paper. Even after a 2 hour bowling session, we still don't have the feeling of holidays. We felt like studying...LOL. Maybe because all of us are just not satisfied with our performance in the paper. I always don't like my weakest subject to be my last paper as it would somehow screw up my mood. Well, I should be glad that exam's over but I'm not.

I feel so empty.

Panic

“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those, who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, the melancholia, the panic fear, which is inherent in a human condition”

A quote i read from somewhere which i totally agree.

 10pm now, I feel like i know nothing bout my last paper tomorrow.

I did all the past year papers, go through tutorial questions.

And I dont feel like studying anymore now!  

Panic am I.

I am always panic when I'm preparing for my weakest subject.

Since young, Chemistry is my weakest link. My most feared subject.

And I'm sitting for it tomorrow.

Anyway, I dont know what the hell I'm writing here. LOL.. I write just to release my tension and stress.Just received a phone call from mum. Talked for half an hour. Every time the day before my chemistry, she would call, just to calm me down. She pointed out that despite i worry like mad every time bout my chem, I did fantastically well for the papers. So, I worry for nothing! hahas....Love her so much. Now, I'm focused again.

Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday.  

So, just stop worrying, do my best, and God will do the rest.

Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen.  Keep in the sunlight.  ~Benjamin Franklin

Finally....

....I'll be getting my life back in approximately 49 hours time.

God bless my soul to  survive these 49 hours.

One last hurrah....^^

You'll Never Walk Alone

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark
Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone
Walk on walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone

I've been supporting Liverpool football club for 8 years. Although they are not the best, but I've stick with them.  I'm always impressed by their never say die attitude. Last season, they are 6 points off from becoming the champion. About an hour ago, they suffered their 5th defeat in 11 league games this season. As their loyal supporter, I'm very disappointed with them, and naturally I felt quite down. To make my feeling worst, I don't think I'm well prepared for my next paper on Monday. Feeling pressured. 

Wanted to give up but the club anthem just came up my head. This song is just so meaningful. 

I don't think the team will give up the title hope so soon, nor should I give up on my exam.

You'll Never Walk Alone....

Walk on~~~~